Getting Old

Walking around Merry Hill pisses me of for many reasons, although i could take time and list them I'll choose not too because 1: it would make me a contradictive moany bitch and 2: it actualy has some shops rather then down Halesowen and Stourbridge (but that could be different now).

Number one on the agenda is the fact you can't move and when you say 'excuse me' in the nicest way everyone looks at you like you've just threatend to kill them and eat their babies.
which, strangly, brings me on to my next topic.

although people who dont know me tend to think i'm young (the plasterer thought i was 14 the other day, even asking why i wasnt in school), i feel really old looking at the moms with there babies in merry hill. most of them must be the same age as me and possibly younger. it's even more scary when the baby is with it's mom, grandmother and great grandmother. I mean when is it too old to have a baby now being as kids at 16 can have them? so what after 25 i'm too old???
What i dont understand is how they can be ready to have children so early, and not think there is anything else after finishing college or school.

now this may sound incredibly heartless and creul, but as a nursery nurse I at this time in my life dont think am able to raise a child, i feel that i'd abondon it, or not care for it like a mother should. So how is it so easy for people to make that choice, I need someone to tell me and say it with dead seriousness cause it's driving me nuts when people think i'm wierd for asking it. it's almost like we've gone back to caveman days or something

i need an agony aunt...