youd trhink years of being ignored wouldnt make me give a shit that people still do it now. but let me tell you people assuming they know what your gonna say and think there right and you are wrong never fucking gets old.
maybe its just me be overly sentimental or everyone else being a asshole but i cant talk to anybody with out them finishing my bastard sentances. perhaps i talk too slow or i have a robot voice, or perhaps everyone is a fucking mind reader because everyone seems to know what my bastard problems are and its making me sick.
i suppose i'll just keep bottleing it up like ive always done, but know whenever somethings minute and stupid happens i just want to go fucking insane and beat up whichever fucker comes into my room and looks at me wrong.
maybe its the video games maybe its the all the violent films i never watch or maybe all those bright colours i played with as a child maybe its all the fucking coke i drink but the fact remains that ive got no one to talk to who understands and even worse no one who will bloody listen.
i suppose the wall will give me the results i want from someone who shuts up and listens but what i need is the person who will listen and then understand.
i guess i could go all emo and slit my wrists and scrape my self raw with a razer or whatever but what the fuck would that accomplish. fucking oliver thinks he's got problems, my problems could fill a book, which i could sell and millions for because lord knows everyone like to read about everyone elses suffering.
now to wait for the comments to fill up and see if anyone acctually read this throughaly
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- Charlotte
- Polite, caring, gentle with a little bit of paranoia, topped with a dash of insanity equals the recipe for a pancake, no not really, just a natural disaster A.K.A yours truly.
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I hare you I spent alot of time talking too a counciler last year(read mini breakdown) beacause for years every time i needed to talk to someone they had a bigger problem, after years keeping it to myself made me ill
you said you have no one to talk to too but you also said you try to keep it to your self (both things have said myself) maybe your not showing them you need them because you bottle it i'm sure someone will set aside time for you if you show them what it would mean to you, if your not honst about this you will end up punshing those close to you and they will have no idea what happened or why. the things that happen to us may seem big or small compared to others but they still matter it's your life after all, i spent 41mins on this comment because i really hope it helps
all i can say is i always get the same two answers off you when i ask you whats up and its either nothing or I don't know.
but i'm not going to comment any further because not matter what i say these days it just makes it worse
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